Dear Father,

It has just been over four years since you have moved on..  ifinn you don’t know, it is your son talking to you..  i’ve not been in the house since Pat got back from the you boat cruise, she had decided that i shouldn’t live there anymore, not really giving any reasons..  It’s all good dad…

 

Funny dad, everytime i see a piece of wood thrown away in the dumpsters, i often think of how you had mastered the art of creating out of wood…

 

It was always like magick, see you build something, with such easy, trying your damndest to teach me the art..  i still can’t cut a straight line in a piece of wood…

 

i don’t see much of my sisters anymore since we do have those big christmas dinners an birthday parties..

 

To be quite honest i don’t talk or hear from any of the family, including my uncles your brothers…

 

Sadly i must say that i’ve not been up too..  Where they have place your broken down body to rest…  You know to place some flower, so that they would dry up an die…  i will try my damndest in getting there before the summer is out?

 

i been down to the big church downtown, an light a candle for grandma, your mother, even though it is a conflict of interest to the way i think about god…

 

Sadly dad, i’m still on the street, however you would be happy to know that i’m doing a lot less drugs…  May days not even using any for periods of days…

 

Well dad, there is not much more i would like to say, only the fact that we’d fight most of the time i do miss you!

Mother Family-2

Grandma, mother two sisters an myself

Your son,
toad (christopher raymond jensen) thisoldtoad

Ps;

Raymond Christopher Jensen (Obituary)

Hello mother;

i don’t know or even remember the last time i’ve spoken to you?  Funny how memories work.  When you come to mind mom, i see the good an bad times that we’ve gone through with father…

 

Some of those memories are so clear it’s like yesterday, now i know what that sounds like, strange since you’ve been gone almost fifty years…

 

As i think now about all the card games you’ve taught me as a child..  A strange thought comes to mind, you probably know how to play bridge, the fun games we could’ve had stomping are would be opponents…  “Playing through grandma!”

 

i hope that i can make it out this year, to place flowers in your bonnet mom, maybe clean the dirt off, pull some of the weeds..

 

i’ll leave with this mom,

 

i love you!

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toad (chris jensen) thisoldtoad

To my dear SISTERS…

This post I make for my dear sister, I am now truly grateful have my dear sister because are family would be very lonely without anybody to hold the family together now that Dads gone.  As strange as it was Dad kept the family alive?  More than ever now it feels like I’m alone in the world.  If it were not for you two the world would be come scary place.  Knowing you two are there keeps out of me delusional world and in the present.

 

Thank you dear sisters

 

chris jensen (Toad)